my new life

today is the beginning of a new life of working for God...not sure what it pays..haha...but im sure God will tend to my needs...He is awesome like that.

New Life Ahead!

i feel very blessed on this day....my search for a good church is over...i have decided to be ordained and worship God on a more personal level...besides that i would like to share my knowledge of God and Jesus Christ with the people around me....many times people forget about the wonderful power of the Holy Spirit, they get set in their man made rituals and forget what the Spirit is trying to say...maybe i can help in some way even if it isnt in a very big way...if i can bring one soul closer to the will of God, then i will feel great....in the meantime, everyone be blessed and be kind to each other until my next blog...God willing.

Easter

today was a good day...i attended church this morning and was able to watch the lds national convention..it was very nice...i have to find a way to avoid one of the church members there because this individual stirs bad feelings in me and i am trying to stay peaceful...maybe next sunday when the regular congregation is there i can be more comfortable.....its nice to have a church that i feel good at...God is so awesome its just unreal.....He has done so much for me in my life that i know there is nothing i could ever do to repay Him except try to keep His commandments to the best of my ability....its loving my neighbor that gives me trouble at times because sometimes that dont act very lovable...but its ok because God knows im not perfect and that i am trying....thank you Jesus for all i will ever need....peace.

im not crazy..yay!

all these years i believed that maybe i am just insane because i have always had ideas about God that didnt fit into any denomination that i was aware of....i have always believed that God is a very loving and generous God, but i have always been told only about His wrath for doing wrong....i was confused for so long as to how God could be our Father and love us so much, but set us on fire for messing up....turns out that there are other people besides me that know God is loving and wouldnt do that and that all He asks of us is to keep our body clean and as pure as we can and try to treat each other right....the latter day saints feel this way and i am blessed to have finally found my place...i always loved those commercials too....what a great way to live for God....im looking forward to my next and final baptism with them.....i know now that God is talking to me and i am not crazy...the days of His visions for peace and love are not over, we are not on our own...He is there and He is always talking to people, we just dont always hear Him because we are tied up in our worldly lives....i am so blessed to be free from smoking after all these years and i am, for the first time in my life, not tired anymore......my hope is that everyone will be able to feel His awesome love for us before the world puts us down....Hes great...He loves us and wants us to be at peace....thanks God for everything you have given me and thank you Jesus for giving your life for us because we sure dont deserve it.

feeling great!

yes...i do believe i have finally found a church that i am comfortable in....i love it...for so many years i have searched for a congregation of folks that come together to worship without all the judgmental looks....and i have quit smoking which is just great...i never thought i would be able to quit and yet here i am smoke free....cool....i can understand why the LDS folks have got a bad rap.....they have a habit of doing what God said instead of what the world says and to me thats cool, but to a lot of other folks its too hard to live that way...they ask people in the congregation to refrain from doing things that are harmful to themselves or others and i honestly dont have a problem with that at all...in fact i think it is absolutely wonderful....i have always been the sort of person that tries to find good in all things and i didnt know that there was any denomination that preached about Gods awesome love that He has for us....all i ever hear is about how He is going to send us to hell if we dont behave...well, it just isnt true....and now i know that i am not the only one that believes this...i am looking forward to taking my new job with the Lord and i am sure He will be happy that i am doing it....i feel honored and blessed to have such an awesome God helping me every day to become a better person...thank you Jesus...peace to all.

living for God is hard

yep...it sure is.....living the way God wants me to is not easy for me...i have no will power and often find myself doing things i probably shouldnt be doing, like smoking for one thing...i know He doesnt want me to smoke.....i have tried for a long time to quit by myself, but it looks like im going to be giving this to God because i really need His help if i seriously want to stop.....im positive that this time i will quit and it will work...today is the last day of smoking for me, then no more....there are a lot of other things i need to do to that i will need His help with, like keeping my temper and such or trying not to let others get in between me and God...i know that the subject of God and jesus tends to stir up anger in some folks so sometimes its hard to keep a peaceful feeling in you, but with Gods help all things are possible, so im going to just trust Him and see how things go...im sure it will be wonderful...whenever i think of how hard it is for me to get up on sunday morning or how hard it is to live the way God wants me to, i remember what Jesus went thru for me and it helps a lot...now last sunday i had intended to go to church but the idea of me changing for the better and living for God upset my family to the point that we were fighting all weekend, but its all good now because after all the strife my husband has decided that if me going to church can bring peace to the family then he will go with me....that by itself is a miracle...my husband believes and loves God, but doesnt like to go to church because of all the people that go that are not there for God but for each other....so if things work out well, my family will finally be on a spiritual path together instead of separately...amen

Awesome Day!

yes...today was awesome...my daughter was baptized and it was a wonderful experience...i think i will hang out with these folks for a bit...they seem very nice and so far everything checks thru God...i try to ask God about most things that i do so it only stands to reason that i would be asking Him if this congregation is ok....so far so good....i feel at peace over there so i might as well stay awhile....it was nice to see my daughter so happy for a change...i think its going to be a lot of fun with folks that are willing to accept me....i can accept just about anything in life, but rarely have i found a place that accepts me, so i feel honored and blessed to be a part of something so great...thanks God....peace.