living for God is hard

yep...it sure is.....living the way God wants me to is not easy for me...i have no will power and often find myself doing things i probably shouldnt be doing, like smoking for one thing...i know He doesnt want me to smoke.....i have tried for a long time to quit by myself, but it looks like im going to be giving this to God because i really need His help if i seriously want to stop.....im positive that this time i will quit and it will work...today is the last day of smoking for me, then no more....there are a lot of other things i need to do to that i will need His help with, like keeping my temper and such or trying not to let others get in between me and God...i know that the subject of God and jesus tends to stir up anger in some folks so sometimes its hard to keep a peaceful feeling in you, but with Gods help all things are possible, so im going to just trust Him and see how things go...im sure it will be wonderful...whenever i think of how hard it is for me to get up on sunday morning or how hard it is to live the way God wants me to, i remember what Jesus went thru for me and it helps a lot...now last sunday i had intended to go to church but the idea of me changing for the better and living for God upset my family to the point that we were fighting all weekend, but its all good now because after all the strife my husband has decided that if me going to church can bring peace to the family then he will go with me....that by itself is a miracle...my husband believes and loves God, but doesnt like to go to church because of all the people that go that are not there for God but for each other....so if things work out well, my family will finally be on a spiritual path together instead of separately...amen