God....my opinion

i just got back from a nice visit with the mormons....nice folks...i attended a pentecostal church for almost a year...that was pleasant. my husband is baptist, but never goes to church. my son goes to church every week....as does my daughter....not because of us, but they made their own choice to attend. as for me...well...ive been to several denominations of churches trying to see what other folks believe in, but have never quite found the spot im looking for. God could be felt in a couple of those churches, but the people made it uncomfortable for me...ive never had any problems with God, just church people. one day while attended church i was overtaken by such a strong sense of love and peace that i knew it must be God....but it scared me half to death, so i quit going to church. around the same time frame, i went to sleep one night and had the most realistic dream ever. my spirit left my body and i was in...what i think... heaven. Jesus showed me around and its beautiful...warm, peaceful....words just cant describe the feeling i had. everything was kind of florescent to me...now i know it was because there are no shadows in heaven...no darkness at all...thats why it seemed that all was like glowing or something like that...anyway...all Jesus had to say to me was that i would not be able to go beyond this wall up there...where God dwells...unless i quit smoking....sounds silly i know, but thats what He told me....then He said that He wants folks to know that He is really coming so dont worry and be good to each other until He gets here. sounds reasonable i guess. except that i am not an overly religious person and have no idea why i would be worth His time. its not like anyone ever listens to me anyway and now im just the crazy lady that talks to God. maybe i am crazy, but all it was was a message of peace and hope, so people shouldnt get too offended by it.....you wouldnt think, but some folks get offended by everything. i dont know alot about anything, but i do know that in my heart God is real and i feel bad that so many folks have given up on Him....im not saying that He is like they teach with His wrath and all....He may just be a more intelligent entity than we are or maybe we are all connected like the borg in star trek...in case you havent noticed, im also a big star trek fan.....maybe God is like Q.....i dont know...i just know He is there....most religions agree on the beginning and the end of things...if we can just learn to get along with the stuff in between, i think we would be better off. besides...do you really need to believe in God to be nice to each other? why does God make people so angry? why does the thought of an unknown presence loving us cause us doubt and grief? it shouldnt....just love each other...no matter what you believe in, you have to believe that treating people nicely is a better way to go. im not asking anyone to believe me or anything like that...just my own experience i wanted to share. peace is always good in my opinion.