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ok...so...im back here again. like i was saying, im an average folk i guess.......i used to think i was special cuz mom said so, but the rest of the world sees me as ordinary. i used to sing for awhile... a few years, but it seems that the only places i was able to perform at were bars or talent shows....that gets old quick....drunks were more fun when i was one of them. since i quit drinking, bars arent near as much fun as they used to be. i also got sick of everyone telling me what a great singer i was, but not able to tell me what to do with the talent....so i gave up. i think it would be better if i had someone in my life that had positive input. all i ever get is negative feedback from my family. my husband was afraid if i were to become famous that i would not love him anymore and then my mom got real sick and now my dad is sick, so i have to keep putting my life and hopes and dreams on hold. i dont mind. im hoping that i will outlive all these yahoos and then i can do something with my life. i have graduated from several trade schools and am currently taking a course in social work and psychology. i dont know if i will ever complete this course....i have a problem with some of the lessons. i have the unique ability to feel for others like counselor troy on star trek...im very empathic, however, i cant seem to find any reasoning behind a person that has sexual relations with a child...and thats what this section of the book is about...why these folks are like that....for the first time in my life...i found a group of people that i cant empathize with. i tried, but i just cant. now i spend my days tending to my dad, trying to keep up with my farm on facebook and watching episodes of house. i have a different view of life and i thought it would be nice to share my strange ideas with the world. if you happen to be curious, my next blog is going to be about when i met God.